The people I was exchanging with have been to my house about 5/6 times in the last month and to be totally honest have been a bit of a pain, phoning/texting etc. They asked if they could bring some boxes over on Sunday as they felt they had too much for removal company, me being me said yes! Along they came with A LOT! They also then took some of my boxes to their house to help me.
We were to sign new tenancy agreements on Tuesday.....0755 on Monday morning I received a text from him asking me to call him...to be told they were pulling out of move, they feel terrible, the stairs are ‘just too much’ (bearing in mind their house is an upper so they have to go up stairs), she had been in agony with arthritis (probably worse due to all the lifting and up stairs about 20 times), they had gotten rid of sofa, carpets etc (not really my problem!!).
So anyway I listened and accepted what he said, if i am totally honest i did not want to live in an upstairs only but was doing it for my kids! I told him i wasn’t going to say much as i was upset snd angry that they have left it to the day before signing and iv wasted so much time packing up my house when I have a newborn baby.
I LOVE my house, so will wait for the right place to come along, today I am meeting my friend who is a housing officer at her work, she can cuddle George and I will fill in housing application and she will deal with it so it may take years but hey ho. I will keep looking for an exchange but won’t be packing until tenancy agreements are signed lol!!
I felt really low and was beating myself up, I should have been spending this time with my baby instead iv been stressing out over a move that didn’t happen.
Its safe to say PND is rearing its ugly head and my GP is keeping a close eye on me. Im also going to go back on my anti depressants tonight. Saw a GP in pregnancy after the Manchester attack who told me to stop them as I was harming my unborn baby - the meds are actually one of the safe ones to take during pregnancy and breastfeeding! Idiot!!
Also had a small issue with a neighbours daughter, her and Amy used to play but she became a bit of a bully a few years ago, anyway she waved at me last week being cheeky and then done it again to Amy and I saw - again me being me spoke to her dad (i felt sick with nerves and was nearly crying), explained what she was doing to be told in a nasty tone ‘well she obviously has a reason for it’ and off he stormed, i asked ‘what is the reason’ to which he ignored and then called down ‘thought we could talk as adults’.....nothing! This really upset me as im now thinking iv made it worse for Amy, told her if anything happens at school to phone/text me and il be straight on phone to school but everything was ok. Amy doesn’t care lol!! I just expected more of her dad, if someone who id known for 12yrs came to me and said my daughter was being cheeky i would apologise and she would be spoken to!!!
Also the report from Manchester attack is out so on news and this really upset me.
Im staying positive and AM going to start meds. Today we are going to sort housing application and then go to Bookbug at the Library - singing/rhyme time
Sorry this turned into war and peace!!!
P xxx
It is brilliant to see how you are coping, though, and you recognise that PND is lurking, so you will get through it. Having everything coming together is so stressful for you and I'd love to just give you a big hug. As for the neighbour's daughter, obviously the apple doesn't fall far from the tree 
